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Momento Vivere

Wait and wait
Until it’s too late.
I think you used to think of me,
Maybe, in a different way.
There was a connection to fight;
An eager urge, a primal surge 
always caught in a bottom lip bite.
Was that in your line of sight?
I think we used to be at ease in a way we aren’t now that freedoms seize. 
Mellow to bright,
Blinding as first opening eyes to light;
I see and I’d like to hide.
I think of times that never were,
But could have been;
Things I’ve never said, 
But could still mean.
I think often of things that mean nothing:
The soft second of skin against skin,
The scent of cologne subtly swaying through the den,
A warm and relentless strum played by hands I’ll never know,
A self proclaimed throne inside layers upon layers of walls made of stone. 
I’d like to let it all go:
The solid sound of the same things on tv,
The way I laugh twice as loud at all the same jokes,
The absolute awareness of being almost a little too close,
The way you don’t seem to think very obviously of any of it,
And the desire to know if you’d dare be aware at all.

– E.B.

Selfish

I want to love,
To hold in my arms 
Unknowing existence;
To guide it
As it breathes,
Lungs ablaze with the air
Of passion,
Of pain,
Disdain.

I want to love,
To give everything for
Involuntary life;
To ensure survival
As it grows,
Bones aching with 
“What is the meaning?
Why exist?
Why persist?”

I want to love,
To be just so proud of
This unsuspecting,
Cornered soul.
To think just how lucky 
I am to have 
Burdened by breeding,
Intervening, 
Creating this being
Now fleeing the alteration-
Of-generations.

– E.B.

Don’t get me wrong, actual snakes are innocent

Snakes seduce,
So do you.
Slither slowly,
Writhe, and twist.
Strangling in plain view, 
Strangling submissive youth.

Smothered,
And desperate
Amidst a lack of air,
An unspoken truth 
Dies there.

Snakes mangle hearts
Constrict leisurely,
Grip and Conflict
Contorting with malice aforethought,
Contorting possible light, possible self,
Posterity.

Contorted,
And conditioned,
From a lack of care,
A child hides there
Scared and aware.

Snakes seize brains, 
So often unkind.
Spinelessly spinose,
Yet, 
“Of sound mind”.
They bind.

Bound day to day,
Obey. 
Relay.
Feel every blink of the eye, 
And crave the blue of every vein.


- E.B.

Emotions

Be a rock,
Solid and sturdy.
Show them,
Make it seem that the world,
The world is 
not heavy.

Be a bird,
Light and beauty.
Sing to those,
Those in need
In need of 
your melody.

Be a river,
Glimmer and flow.
Feel the energy
Come and go,
Accepting of that,
That which you may not 
know.

Be a star,
Shine and explode.
Knowing that no one,
No one can always be
In control.

– E.B.